Different personalities… 3月 31, 2007
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It’s so amazing how people’s personalities differ… Now that I’ve been reading several seiyuus’ blogs, I’ve noticed so many differences. Of course, it’s obvious that several people must have several differences. But one tends to think that people working in the same thing would have similar attitudes towards certain things, specially considering that they all come from a similar cultural background and all.Yet, it’s so amazing… M.B.O. has such a mysterious approach and other seiyuus have such an open and clear (you could even say “commercial”) approach to his works… More or less what we noticed when we were reading Ki.T.’s blog. For a while, he was more ‘open’, talked about more private stuff, about his thoughts, his points of view, his family, his inner self. But then he switched and turned into an advertisement blog, regarding all his favorite brands, music bands and stuff…
M.B.O. is always mysterious about it. He’s always hidding the names of the stuff in which he works, the stuff he likes, he never advertises bluntly. But some other seiyuus are much more direct! They go and say “Hey, guys, I have a role in this thing, go check it out!” and give you every detail about it so you can go and get it easily. xD
Of course, there are a lot of people “in between”, with a semi-mysterious approach, that share part of his intimate/private stuff and part of his business stuff with their readers. But, in general, I find it much more attractive when they are open with their fans and talk about the stuff they like, they are doing, their feelings… It makes you feel much more closer to them! 
It’s a nice feeling. 
Anyway, I have no idea why I came to write about this… It was just like… the natural consequence of being reading blogs for a while. xD
バイバイ！
And I’m loving you lots and lots… And I’m loving you lots and lots! Doo, doo, doo~! 3月 30, 2007
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Ahhh, yeah. Today it’s been a day full of nice things, without so much drama involved. I’ve read, I’ve watched TV, I’ve slept, I’ve read some blogs in Japanese, I’ve wrote in Japanese (both in real life and virtualy) and, above all, I’ve finally found some POT mp3s to download! I’ve been looking for complete albums or something like it for the past week+ and, yet, I hadn’t found anything until today. So, I’m sooo happy! We were going to make out karaoke anyway tomorrow, but now we have more options and not only for the karaoke but for whenever we feel like listening to POT music. Which, by the way, it rocks ’cause it’s sung by soooo many bishounens!
Today, I also found the official website of the voice actor that plays one of my favorite characters on that series (other than Te.K., who’s my first and unarguable favorite… *.*), I.S.. I haven’t read it yet, because it was kinda long and I wanted to write some stuff before, but I may check it out later today, given the fact that my dear S. has SMSed me telling me that she’ll probably “be late because this class she had at 12 pm was switched to 7 pm” and she also has to do some stupid homework along with her stupid classmates so “she may as well stay until late today, so she doesn’t have to go out tomorrow”… ¬¬ I won’t say more than that, but… Here we go, right? -_-
What the hell, not even her and her hyper fanatism towards stupid University will ruin my day. I’m also happy because I found 2 of the songs sung by I.S. and I’ve also been able to catch up with O.R.’s blog (he posts something every single day, no matter how long or short it may be!), which is something I thought I wouldn’t be able to do.
What else? Mmm… I’m reading ERAGON still and, god dammit, it’s good! I haven’t gone too far, but it’s completely caught my attention. 
Besides, dragons always rock and it has so many elements from other stuff I like (LOTR, SP…)! Sadly, I’m reading it only in Spanish, unlike E.A., who managed to get his hands on an English original version of this book… But that’s better than nothing.
Lately, I’ve tried to reduce the time I spend watching STARGATE SG-1 and try to use it to read, but I inevitably end up falling asleep even if I’m having lots of fun reading. Probably it has to do with the fact that I always go to bed late and wake up early, along with my sister… But, whatever the reason is, it’s so annoying because I don’t last more than 3 hours reading without falling asleep. Why is it that TV makes me last awake longer than reading? -_- Dunno, but it’s annoying. D:\
And… Well. Yesterday was a pretty amazing day, nationally speaking. Today was the “Día of the Joven Combatiente” (losely translated as “Day of the Young Fighter” or something like it…), which is a stupid day in which even more stupid people “remember” the murder of 2 terrorists that took place in 1985 (check this link, in case you wanna read a bit about the whole stuff…). ¬¬
The thing is that, no matter what the reason behind the ‘celebration’ itself is, the day is marked as one of the days in which more stupid “encapuchados” (hooded people, masked people… in other words, cowards hidding their faces…) use to destroy public property, make protests and riots and turn the cities (and, specially, the capital city) into an unbelievable war zone. ¬_¬
So, yesterday was chaos in Santiago. Molotov bombs, tires and stuff burnt up, lots of people imprisoned, lots of policemen injured… -_- And that, added to the usual chaos that’s now that city’s public transportation system (because of the infamous Transantiago), ended up with a lot of people having to climb up their way through fences to get to the subway stations that were closed, lots of people who didn’t know how the hell they would get home and a total stampede of people trying to escape from the protests and the ‘war zone’. -_-
It’s so completely stupid and uncivilized and, yet, every year is worst and every year these assholes find the way to make it all wrong. Every single year I went to the University, this day was a total nuisance and we never knew if there were going to be classes or not or if we would have to run away from police and protesters or what. Most of the time, I avoided it by skipping the whole day and staying at home safely, but there were a couple of times in which we had to actually escape from the riots and the tear-producing bombs. 
At least, that much was good. At least this year I could stay at home without even having to worry about it because I didn’t HAVE to go anywhere!! MUAHAHAH!
Anyway, that doesn’t change the fact that this whole “DÍA DEL COMBATIENTE” thing is pointless, stupid and primitive and I really wish the idiotic young people of this country who go out and protest (for no reason ’cause most of them have no idea of why the whole thing was created in the first place) would stop it ’cause… Gah, it’s embarassing to be from such a primitive country in which such a thing happen every single stupid year!
*sigh*
But, oh well… It’s not like I can change anything, so… I should stop. I don’t know what I’ll do from now on, but I wish silly S. arrives home soon cause… It’s so boring without her the whole freakking day! (>.<)
See y’all.
BTW, I suck… 3月 29, 2007
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Yeah, I do… As usual, everytime I visit a community devoted to my beloved one or someone else who I happen to admire, I end up feeling like crap and thinking how the hell can I call myself a “fan” or “lover” or him if there’s so many other people in the world who know much more about him, have much more things about him and do much more things for him… -_-I know it’s stupid and that many have said that, even if I don’t have every single interview, every single song, every single magazine or picture there is, it’s not like I’m a bad person or anything, but even so… I suck. x_x No wonder why everything’s ended up the way it has… I’ll never be a bigger person!! T_T
Jesus Christ… -_-
Seiyuu love~ 3月 29, 2007
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Gosh, I’m going back to that time in which I spent all my day staring at a certain seiyuu pictures, drooling over him, daydreaming about stuff related to him, listening to his voice and getting desperated for the whole bunch of things I don’t have but I wish I would! And it’s such a warm and delicious feeling and, at the same time, such a suffocating sensation! I wish I could control it but I just go crazy about this stuff. *.*It’s pretty much the same sensation I had when I was drooling over Te.K. some weeks ago, only that this is towards real guys, who are completely delicious, incredibly sexy and wonderfully talented and good at what they do. And they are also so freakking far away! T_T But, even so… It doesn’t matter, as it never mattered to control my feelings towards my beloved M.S., the one who’s kept me alive all this time…
You could say now the drooling has become a bit diversified but it doesn’t matter. Even if now it’s not only for my beloved M.S. that I drool alone (and, as a matter of fact, my feelings toward him are still different from that of a normal fan… I have the right comparison right now, inside my heart, when I compare my feelings towards my beloved one and towards O-san!), it’s still quite strong and amazing and… desperating. @_@
And… well. It amazes me how many many things can a voice (not even united to the actual looks of the person, but only his voice alone, entering your ears and burning every word inside your brain…) can cause inside you. No wonder Japanese people are so fond of radio dramas and drama CDs! Gosh, I wish I had more of those! More of those with O-san’s voice, more of any drama CDs with the seiyuus I love…
I guess seiyuus beat the crap outta the people who say that looks and personality are all that matter when it comes to attraction. That’s soooooooooooooooooooooooo not true! All the contrary. Even if you don’t know how a guy looks, even if you never really get to know his psyche and all, EVEN SO, you can still fall for him and become obssessed with him and dream about him (actual dreams) and all. And, sometimes, even if you discover that his inside (mind and spirit) aren’t as great as that of his characters, it won’t matter cause what you love is the voice, the images that puts in your mind, the feelings it evokes, the sensations it produces to you when you’re listening to it… specially if you’re aware that there’s not a chance in hell that you’ll end up being the actual couple of the guy in question.
Now, the problem is when those things go beyond the reasonable limit, when everything makes you think that you can really stand a chance, that there’s the slightest possibility of becoming a part of that man’s life. Then you go nuts as I did and end up suffering for a non-mutual love that you created and assumed, regardless all the alarms and warning signs your reason was popping up into your mind. Cause it’s just like that… When the heart (and part of your brain leftovers…) become conquered by the voice and sexyness (in every single sense of the word) of a certain someone, even if you know that someone doesn’t even know that you exist and is in the other half of the world, living his life, having kids and becoming a complete human being… EVEN SO, you can’t stop loving him, believing that there’s a chance, that something with come up, that something will happen and make it all work out.
It’s then when I recover my strenght, feel like I can do anything (I believe I can fly~ ♪ xD) and start daydreaming and imagining impossible futures for myself. Then, I lose all sense of reality, mix everything up and picture a way of living that’s not only impossible because it’s based on a number of assumptions that may never be true, but because of my very own personality… But, of course, you don’t consider those stuff when you’re submerged in that atmosphere of love and impossible dreams and assumptions and crazy ideas…
As it’s to be expected, suddenly something pulls you back to reality and you are forced to wake up and face your pathetic real world. Then you realize that not even half of the things you thought were real, that not even one of the assumptions you made could be possible and that you’re stuck within your impossible dreams, without an exit that doesn’t mean killing everything you believe in, stand for and have lived for so far… And then it’s when you end up losing all that strenght, feeling empty and exhausted and as if nothing else matters. Cause it would be better never to wake up (目覚めたくない、この願い・・・♪) and to keep on dreaming forever rather than to face what you really have to face in the world outside of your mind…
Geez… When I re-read what I just typed out, it doesn’t even seem as if I did it… And yet, I did and I needed to write that and say it, so to speak, “out loud”… Heh, it’s amazing to feel how, sometimes, you’re not in control of your action per se, but you allow your mind to actually show off its control over you and makes you do things that, later, you don’t even recognize as yours… O.o
Mmm… It seems I really need to go and have some food. I haven’t eaten a thing since this morning, around 09:30 am, and it’s already 16:44 pm so… o.o Maybe that’s why I’m in this phylosophical mood. xD
So… Yeah, I’ll stop here and go get something to eat. Later, I gotta find some lyrics to a karaoke session we’ll be having this weekend, with S., sooo… Busy, busy, busy (just like someone else I know… xD)!
またね！
I believe I can fly~ 3月 29, 2007
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MUAHAHAHA… Not really. xD It’s just that I can’t get that song outta my head. So… I’ve finished all the things I had to do to get my title. Supposedly, in a couple of months, I’ll get the diploma and all the certificates but, from today, I’m a certified translator.
Funny… I don’t really feel like one. I don’t feel like working or like doing anything remotely similar to that, even though I’ve finished a career. I’ve studied for 5 years and, even so, I feel so unsure of my knowledge and my actual talent to work as what I’m supposed to be… ¬¬ Probably because of what A.G. and I talked today. We both entered this career to learn a language, to make come true our dream of speaking and understanding Japanese, under the false pretense that we would become really proficient by studying this career. Sadly, the career was more focused on translation techniques and stuff that in teaching us the language as well as we wanted and the result is that, now, we don’t picture ourselves working as translators but we don’t have the proper level of knowledge to do other stuff. -_- It’s so complicated!
Anyway… Today, the old lady that had to receive all my documents in the University office in charge of titles and degrees and stuff, told me she had talked not long ago with that stupid bitch I’ve mentioned before (the one that used to be my friend and ended up being nothing more than… well, you know… ¬¬). She told me that the b. had been there delivering her own documents (may they burn in hell along with her! D8[) and that she (the lady from the office) had asked her for her friend from Viña. The b. told her that I was her “ex-friend” and the lady was very surprised… So today she asked me what had happened. ¬¬ Of course, I didn’t go into details but I made it clear that b. and I aren’t friends anymore because she had no class at all and she was a poor idiot. But it was upsetting to see that even a lady I barely knew (it’s not like I was her friend or anything… She only remembered me because I live in Viña and it was rare enough to make me rememberable…) had to ask me about that b. and what had happened. ¬_¬
Apart from that, the day was good. I met with A.G. and we didn’t have any problems to get the last documents and deliver them all. Also, I got the chance to talk to M.T.M. and see her personally after a long time and that was nice. And after we were done, A.G. and I went to McDonald’s again and ate and talked for hours. It was fun and I felt good because we talked about some pretty personal stuff and it made me feel much more closer to my friend.
Then I came back home, sleeping the whole trip back. I had finished the 3rd book of the trilogy I was reading and was very sleepy so I put my music and slept. Now I’m kinda hungry so I guess I’ll stop here and go to eat. I kinda feel like writing in Japanese and I’d like to do so, but I had promised I would start a handwritten diary but that’s slow and it makes me more tired than writing in the computer, of course. So, I don’t know if I’ll actually do anything related to that but I kinda want to write something in Japanese. :S
So, I’ll stop here.
See ya~
Mmmm… 3月 27, 2007
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It’s weird. Sometimes I have such a strong feeling to come and post something, to write something no matter what… And yet, in the small amount of time that it takes for the computer to start working, sometimes those wishes fade away and don’t come back until very later on. That’s more or less what happened today. :S I wanted to come and post something interesting, also tell about what happened yesterday with my travel to Santiago after so much time and all…
Anyway, yeah. I went to Santiago yesterday. I met with A.G. and D.G. after so much time! I hadn’t seen them personally since the graduation (D.G.) and the end of our classes (A.G.)! Also, just out of good luck, O.S. was there too. We met at one of the offices were we had to go to get documents and we stuck together the whole day, until we left. It was fun! We couldn’t finish all the things we had to do in one single day (sadly for me, ’cause that means I’ll have to go and do stuff again tomorrow… ¬¬) but at least we could catch up with each other’s lives and with general gossips. xD In fact, that’s the reason why we could even enjoy O.S.’s company during out lunch at McDonald’s! We were having so much fun talking that, even though he meant to leave, he ended up staying and eating French fries with us!
It was pretty cool and, actually, much more better than I expected. But, during the trip back home, I started to think about so many things… I ended up getting really nostalgic and kinda blue. Not only because I felt like I’m being such a useless human being while my friends all have plans and something on their minds (which is something that has been popping up in my mind since this year started… Or, rather, since I finished my career…), but because of a mixture of stuff. While we were talking, we couldn’t help it but to talk about the stupid bunch of my “ex-friends” and the whole situation I had to go through last year thanks to those bitches. We couldn’t help it but to conclude it was unbelievable how they turned their backs on me and, also, how stupid I was for having ever trusted them… And that brought me to my usual inner conflict regarding that matter. ‘Cause, regardless of whatever everyone else may think, I was the one who wasted 4 years of my 5 years in that University befriending people who turned against me as soon as they could. I was the one who devoted myself to them and their friendship during all those years, trying to be truthful and loyal and who ended up finding herself having to rebuild her social life at the end of a period that, for most people, means to find husband and ever lasting friends!
Now, don’t misunderstand me. I’m grateful that I at least had the chance of having 6 months to discover new people, to bond with them, to share my University time with them and all. I’ll always be grateful for the time I had to make my friendship deeper with A.G., E.A., D.G., O.S. and even M.M.! But, at the same time, when I think of it, I can’t help but to realize I could have been much more happier, felt so much more loved and all if I had realized sooner the kind of honour-less, traitorous, ill-hearted people I was wasting my friendship with! I can’t help to think that I should have been smarter (“we’re better than this!” ~ Obi Wan Kenobi) and used that time in the University to get to know better the people whose worth I’m certain of now… There are so many things I would have loved to share with them all and that I, instead, shared or entrusted to my so called “friends”! D8[
So… All that chatting about that and remembering how stupid I was, made me really sad. And that, along with the fact that I was listening to some real touching songs (T.K.~) and thinking of a looooooot of other stuff… I ended up crying like an idiot, in the street, while I walked alone to my home. -_-
When I was almost home, I decided to go and check the Cultural Center to see what courses they offer and to see if the library was open (I want to sign up there). It was on my way there that I cried and, luckily, there was no one around to see me (only myself and I felt stupid enough…). When I finally got there, I found that the library was closed (duh~) and that there are almost no courses available… But there was this add and thought of something. Cause maybe I’m not fit to teach myself (I haven’t got the slightest idea of how to teach something, let alone teach a language…) but maybe the teacher of those courses need a teacher assistant… So I wrote down the details and, when I got home and checked my e-mails, I wrote an e-mail to the person named there… I don’t know what will become of it, but… Maybe I’ve found a way to work in something related with Japanese without having, necessarily, to translate.
Also, since I was so genki, I mailed D.G. and told her that maybe we could work together on an offer she’s got… o.o And the weirdest thing was that, after a long time, I decided to e-mail J.L., the greatest Chilean voice actor I’ve ever heard. In 2002 I had mailed him, telling him how much I admired him and he wrote me back, very nicely. But then we lost contact and I never wrote to him again. But now that I’m seriously considering the possibility of studying to become a voice actress myself, I thought it may be best to talk to an expert on the subject before making any decisions. I don’t know if he’ll reply or anything but… It was worth a try. Besides, I’d love to get to know him better ’cause not only he was very nice when I wrote to him 5 years ago, but he also is one of the few people I know that type properly when writing e-mails!!!! That’s soooooo freaking rare among Chilean people that amazed me for real! *.*
And… What else? Nothing. I’ve watched STARGATE SG-1 all day long and haven’t felt like doing anything else. The mere idea of going to Santiago again tomorrow, makes me lazy so… I slacked all day long. Probably after I have the black cloud of “tomorrow I have to go to Santiago” floating over my head, I’ll get my interest in reading in Japanese, writing in Mixi and stuff, back.
Oh! Speaking of reading, I’m about to finish the last book of the Cosmic Trilogy and I’ve got the Spanish version of ERAGON and “THE MESSIAH”, by Anne Rice! My mom bought them for me this weekend, when we went to the mall to buy some sport shoes to my sis. I’m looing forward to reading ERAGON cause everyone has told me it’s great. Not greater than THE LORD OF THE RINGS collection, but… Close to it. And “close to it” may be reaaaaaally good, so… o.o But first, I gotta find out how Merlinus is going to end up the war between good and evil and seal forever the evil Tellus edila!!! ;D
Now, I gotta go see my sis’ “lunch” and some food for me too, so I’ll stop now. But I can’t go without saying 置鮎龍太郎さん！お娘さんが卒業しましたから、おめでとうございます！I just read his blog and found out and couldn’t help but saying it here, out loud! ;D I wonder how old his daughter is…
And… THANK YOU, DEAR C.P.!!!!!! You know why. All the stuff you’ve sent me and are planning on sending me are the best and you’re the best and most generous friend I’ve ever had. THANK YOU FOR BEING LIKE YOU ARE!!!!!! :_)
Also, I wish I could write like he and my beloved one do on their respective blogs! *.* I hope someday my Japanese can be like their! *.*
Ok. Enough ranting for now.
Bai bai!
PS: LOL… Thank God I wasn’t in the mood to write… xDD
