~★SAIL AWAY ★~

Again, I’m in that weird mood of mine. I don’t feel like doing anything and, at the same time, I have lots of things in mind. -_- It’s such an annoying feeling… x/These days have been sad and boring. I’ve been torturing myself with some thoughts, arguing with people, thinking about what to do with everything and nothing has ccome out of my intense thinking. As usual, I may add. ¬¬

I’ve gone back to playing Maple. I’ve been playing with my cleric, although most of the time I end up pissed off because, everytime I try to PQ, I end up being flamed by some of the jerks in my party. ¬¬ But I’ve played anyway. And S. thought it wasn’t such a bad idea to train our other charas (warriors, mage and ranger, etc, etc) alternatively so they don’t get stuck until next summer or something like it. The problem is, I don’t know how to play with S.’ ranger, for example, and there’s a pretty good chance I’ll only get killed. ¬¬ But I gotta try. Only I haven’t felt like it lately. It’s easier to train the cleric girl and kill without thinking of anything.

Reading O.R.’s blog has been one of the main responsibles of my going back to the game. Everytime I read about him and his “hunting” sessions (which I finally know what they are about!), I remember the times when D.L., P.Y., S. and I played together and trained like crazy to finally get to lvl70… And I miss that. I miss that feeling of having friends to have fun with in that virtual world that can mean so much fun or anger at the same time. :_( Sadly, it’s all very different now but… I still have hope that we can get what we had back together.

So I’ll probably go and play now. I should practice for my singing lesson tomorrow, but I don’t really feel like it. I’m sleepy and floppy and bored and sick of everything (or almost everything). I spent the morning reading until I fell asleep. The I woke up, ate and came to the computer to reply mails, read the above mentioned blog and do a couple of stuff like that. I’m still waiting for the STARGATE SG-1 episodes to re-download so I can continue watching the 8th season… I had downloaded the TV rips I found on Isohunt, but almost every episode is corrupted so I have to re-download the whole thing… ¬¬

On the bright side, I’ve been more in touch with A.G., E.A. and D.G. The latter asked me to help her with some letters she had to write to the Japanese Inmigration Bureau, concerning her imminent trip to Japan and that day it was fun to talk to her again.

Also, I re-found an old friend. She’s a fan of M.S. as well (in fact, that’s why we first met) and we found each other somehow in LJ. I vaguely remember it had something to do with N-PB but I’m not sure… Anyway, we hadn’t talked in a loooooooong time and today I got an e-mail from her, in response to one I sent her. Now that some stuff have changed and that I’m trying a different approach, somehow things feel better. Hopefully, we’ll re-establish our frequent contact soon.

I had forgotten to tell, but I quit Hitoshi Doi’s SeiyuuML a while ago. I did it regretfully because I liked that place, I thought I had some friends there still… But after the reply one of the members sent to my 1st e-mail in like… years! I got pissed. I’m sick of having to cope with other people’s thoughts and personal issues, cause I have plenty with my own. So I sent one last mail saying the guy was a jerk and I asked to be removed. It’s a pity cause I liked that place and I had always got a friendly reply but… I guess some things have to change and they always change for the worse…

What else? I’ve finished reading “El Mesías ~ El Niño Judío” (“Christ The Lord ~ Out of Egypt” is the original title) by Anne Rice. Then I read “Espía de Dios” (“God’s Spy” could be a translation of the title… It’s a book written by an Spanish writer) and now I’m reading Isabel Allende’s “Paula”. I’d always avoided this author’s books because she has too much to do with a political tendency I don’t support. Or stand, for that matter… But I decided it was stupid, being Chilean and loving books, not knowing the work of one of the most famous authors my country has produced. My dear S.T. likes her books and has always talked to me about them and it was outrageous that I hadn’t read any of them. Of course, I should have started with “La Casa de Los Espíritus” but it’s sold out everywhere. ¬¬ So M. bought “Paula” and liked it a lot and now I’m reading it to improve my knowledge of Chilean literature a bit. I intend to continue on this line of literature in the future cause I need to be consequent with that I’ve always said: “People who know languages must become sorta embassadors of their countries and cultures before the world”. I know 3 languages and I intent to raise that number in the future and, certainly, I can’t be nothing even close to an embassador if I don’t even know my own country first. ¬¬ So, I’m gonna try to change that and get a better grasp of my own Chilean culture in order to be able to show it and teach it to the world, with its good and bad things.

Speaking of books, I’ve thought of creating a blog to write about my comments and thoughts of the books I’m reading. Since now I read a lot, ’cause I have a lot of free time, it may be a good excercise to keep my Spanish going, to keep in mind the books I’ve read and it may even be of use to someone looking for what to read. Of course, I don’t intend to do something ‘professional’ or anything… Just whatever comes to my mind, whenever I feel like it. It will be in Spanish, though, ’cause English tires me a lot and my Japanese isn’t good enough to undertake such an endevour just yet… But I’m playing around with the idea.

I’m also thinking about starting to write that old story I’ve always had in mind, inspired by my own personal experience with my beloved one and the song “In my dreams”, by REO Speedwagon. But, I don’t know… Somehow, I don’t feel capable of writing it. I may start something but I’m pretty sure it’ll end up in the trash can after a short while. But who knows… Talking to this old friend has reminded me of that story. I never felt like I was ready to write it because I didn’t know how to end it. But now, it’s got it’s end, even though it’s a pretty sad and pathetic one. ¬¬ At least is an ending…

And… Well. I guess I’ll go check Mixi before playing Maple today, cause I wanna see if the girls in one of the communities replied to one of my doubts regarding O.R.’s blog. Anyway, I’ll probably have a lot of lonely time today to play and do everyting, cause S. has to study, as usual, and she’ll probably come back late at night and we won’t even be able to talk, cause she has a test in a few days. ¬¬

So… I guess this is all, for now.

See y’all.