~★SAIL AWAY ★~

What does it take for a human being to get a glimpse of what “moral standards” are? What do parents have to do to instil values to their children? What can make such a difference that, in the end, those same children you raised (in spite of the fact that you raised them in the right way or not) forget so blindly the most basic spirit of human dignity and human morals to be willing to leave their own parents to die in anonimity, to be left to rotten along with a whole bunch of other poor old people whose families have abandonded them as well?These tricky questions have been wondering on my mind lately. I’m not allowed to disclosure the reasons why this topic came to my mind in the first place, but I can’t help but to write about it ’cause… I keep thinking in that infanous phrase “If you lie down with dogs, you’ll wake up with fleas” (“Cría cuervos y te sacarán los ojos”, in Spanish)… And I can’t imagine how is it possible that someone is capable of having such a hard heart to say, bluntly, “What if we pretend we don’t know him and leave him there?”…

I mean, I’ve had family problems, I’ve had huge fights with my parents and I have a complex relationship with one of them. It has taken time, separation and a lot of things to happen for us to start having something worthy of being called an actual “relationship”. Yet, I can’t imagine being in this situation, knowing that one of my parents is dead and someone calls me to let me know what’s happened and, instead of offering whatever I can do to help so he/she gets a decent final resting place, I ask “And what if we leave him/her there just like that and pretend that we’re not his/her relatives?”. -_- I simply can’t picture it. And this is assuming I’ve had a very bad relationship with these parents and not that I’m someone who lived with them for lots of years and shared most of my youth and part of my adulthood with them… If I had done all that and, even so, I dared say that we should leave him/her alone and pretend we don’t know him/her… Jesus, I’d deserve to be left alone and forgotten myself! /:()

And yet, there’re people who has the nerv to do that. And some other people has to go and fix their mistakes and try to solve things in a decent and conscious way, in a way that maybe the deceased didn’t even deserve, but that it’s the right thing to do.

I can’t help it but admire that “someone” who goes and, even against what he/she feels in his/her very own heart, does the right thing and tries to do what every human being with a heart and with a shread of decency left would do. I’m sure that, under his/her influence, I could reach that level of generousity and selflessness, but even so… You never know until you’re there. And I’m no one judge other people’s actions but… There’s something inside me that prevents me from accepting that such a vicious person, such a cold-hearted person can face this situation in the way I already described.

Geez! I’m not the most hard-working, most useful person in the world! I know. But, even so, when something important shows up, I try my best to make myself useful and to try to help those I care about. I know everyone has their own particular circumstances and all, but… I guess there are things that go beyond that. I guess there are certain things in which, in spite of our own gut feelings, we have to go and do whatever it’s right, even if it tears up appart. And it shockes me and surprises me a lot to see that someone like this person I’ve been talking about is capable of such a… I don’t know… Lack of morals, lack of decency, lack of humanity, lack of common sense! -_-

*sigh*

These days have been weird but the weirdest of all has been the reaction of the people involved. Someone died (April 22nd, 2007), someone rejected that dead, someone else is taking care of it and I’m impressed because I never thought I’d see something like this in person. I can’t help to think of how important are our actions, how important is to live well and try to spread what little goodness we have in ourselves, so others (our parents, our children, our friends, other relatives, whoever crosses in our life path) will appreciate it and, at least, be willing to do a couple of procedures, some paperwork or phone calls or maybe a little trip, once our heart has stopped beating and we are no longer in our physical body or present in this dimension of the reality. We must think of the consequences our every action will have and try to do good things and do them with honesty in our heart cause only then destiny will move its flickering fingers and will allow us to, at the very least, get a decent final resting place. We don’t have anything for granted, not even the people we share our blood with (our lineage) are forced to love us or understand us or take care of us or even consider us as human beings forever. And we must do whatever is necessary to ensure that, at least, we’ve conquered one little good heart, one one will that someday will at least be worried enough about us to provide us with a decent place where to spend our last years comfortably or a nice little corner where our bones can go back to Earth once our time in this world has passed.

Requiescat in pace, アヴス~